Oh fun, a diary entry about my first period.

 Summer of 1989

After weeks of headaches and a crap ton of babysitting jobs, I went to a water park with my youth group, got a horrible sunburn, and started my period. 

That sounds about right. 

July 17, 1989. stupid day

Pre 88 Diary. Woops, where did that come from!?

 Oh hey, I found an earlier diary. 1986, sheesh. 

December 25, 1986

Dear Diary,
I got a pair of black shoes with jewels on the side facing out. I got a Timex water color watch and the pencil I'm writing with I found in my stocking. I got a large red bath robe, I got a nice necklace, a bracelet, three as a matter of fact. I got a nice blue sweater with red hearts all over it. I got this book I'm writing in right now. I got a sweat seat, I got a pair of footy p'j.s I got earrings, a scribble pad, and many more.....
Later- Kathy and I went out bike riding today, first we went out to the the church to bike in the parking lot, then we went to the school I go to, then to my grandmas, then we came back a different route.
Good Night!

STORY!

One day I saw a deer, all of the sudden I heard a big noise, I turned around and the deer was still there. The next day we were going hunting we saw a rabbit, I just turned around and saw the deer again, my dad shot a the rabbit and missed, the rabbit ran.
I said, "Dad, Turn around, look a beautiful deer!"
He aimed at the deer.
I yelled, "Stop!" and I pulled his jacket toward me. He asked my why I didn't want hi to shoot. I told him that the deer was special. The next day I saw it again, I walked up to it and said, it said, "Thank You!"
I jumped, I said, "If  you said that, I'm dreaming."
"No, you are wide awake." She said.
"I will help you now that you have saved my life." She said
Suddenly I smelled smoke and looked around, we were surrounded by fire.
She made a beautiful sound and the fire went out. Then her deer skin peeled off and she looked as if she was born in the center of the sea.
She said, "Thank you for saving me."
I said, "I thank you for the sane reason."
W.L.H.E.A. The End

January 10, 1986 

Dear Diary,
So far the ride has been ok, but it's been bouncy. I've read up to the 7th chapter in Mirrors to London with Love. We had a great time at Santa Cruz. Once my grandma and I were walking on the beach along and we got into the rapid waters. I got half way across the water and my grandma just started and I started sinking and I ran all the way across and my grandma on the other side about died laughing. I was soaked to the core. It was in January so I had my everyday clothes on. Before that happened we had lunch on d 20 to 25 seagulls were gathered in front of us. We threw out some food for about 1o minutes and stopped and they went away. We had a good night too. My dad ordered a pizza. Then we went to bed. But we had fun. Sincerely, Leah.

January 19, 1987

Dear Diary,
We went to Kathy's 2 days before yesterday and came back yesterday. Danielle, Jeana and I had a great time. Kathy didn't. She kept us entertained and we didn't thank her or anything, we got home later.
We talked with our parents and wrote back to Kathy, apologizing for what we did wrong.
But today we had fun, Jeana's friend Nicole from across the street spent the whole day in the back yard with Jeana, except when they had oranges in the front of the house on the porch.
At night we had different choices for everyone we went to Sizzler.
We went shopping, then hoe, and put everything away, then went to bed. Good Night.

 February 28, 1987

Dear Diary,
Today was horrible. I hate to write a bad day in your presence
but I've been forgetting about you and I' sorry!
Today I woke up joyful and happy because today was the day for the once a year annual Roller Skating trip to Valley Vista! I went in my pajamas to the family room to watch cartoons, later my dad cae in when the smurfs were over and called Danielle and I then he assigned us jobs to do. I had to finish mine fefore1pm so I could go on the trip, so I got my jobs done then I got dressed to go.
My mother wrote me a note saying I could go because I had lost my permission skip last night. We got in the care to take me there. We got there, no one was there (at church). We went around the back and no one was there either, so my mom came back to the front and said,
"No one is here, what do we do now?"
I said, "We could go inside and see if anyone is there." She said, "no."
We went back home, everyone was surprised to see me, I started crying. I had waited for 2 weeks and now I couldn't go. So I stayed home and mom got me a pretty hair comb. and apologized. 

March 1, 1987

Dear Diary,
Today was a great day although I sinned. I disobeyed my parents.
Today at lunchtime, Danielle and I wanted to eat at McDonald's (we had $14)
Dad said, "Alright, but walk home afterwards." "ok," we said.
We got there ate and left towards PeeWee golf, we got there played some arcade games and left to run around the blvd. 2 hrs. passed by and we were still running around but my mom and dad, oh yeah! My dad drove up and found us in the parking lot just after I had called mom to explain. We weren't in big trouble but mom & dad were upset so that's my day. Hope you will enjoy this letter. 

March 2, 1987

Dear Diary,
Today was a happy day, I made friends with Melissa again, but not Suzy.
Today at PE, I made 2 goals playing hockey. After school I walked home and watched the carpenters make a back porch, it was neat. Later, I had a snack and my Uncle Paul brought me home.

July 7, 1987

Dear Diary,
I am very upset with this new pen I got, it just won't let me write you a letter.
Anyways, I'm so so sorry I haven't written in a long time. School's out. Yeah, it ended on June 16, I was so sad. I was actually leaving that school, I was heart broken. Oh, and next week 13-18 I' going caping and what a tie I'll have. Yah know what I mean? And the first week of August we're going to Reno, it'll be so fun! We'll stay at the Peppermill Hotel for 3 days for my 63 year old grandmas wedding!! Of course she was married and divorced once to my real (grand)father, but he was an alcoholic and since my father died my mom got married to Leroy, but that was a few years ago. Well I'm really starting to drowse off so I'll leave you to read other letters. bye-bye.

 September 6, 1987

Dear Di-Di,
Today was really exhausting. It was cleaning day after church, we rearranged the living room, we also rearranged our family room, my sister & I did our room (sort of). Anyway, the latest news on Courtney isn't too good, I can tell you now I never going back there again, don't worry. You know I'm really tired and I have to get my rest so good bye. 

 

 That's it for this year.
Yes I gave my diary a nickname, and for sure I think my diary was like a Santa Claus, who had other diary entries to read. Also I have no idea what happened at Courtney's. 

Diaries Pt. 3

 May 1, 1988 Weather: Sunny

Dear Diary Hi, What's up?
Well my day was o.k. I didn't write you last night cause I was babysitting. It's fun but the parents came home drunk. Tomorrow I have to start a new school week. Well my day wasn't too great, well gotta go, I'm getting really tired. 

June 17, 1989

Today was great! This morning I woke up to my oh so loud alarm. But then slept in for another 1/2 hour. I later went to church to meet Rene Unsworth & the rest of the BS workers. We started out walking from the church all the way around the neighborhood surrounding the church While Rene watched us from the van she was in. After that we went to some other neighborhoods passing out fliers. When we were through we headed for Eric & Liz Hietts house to pass out fliers there and to settle down, eat, and finally get ready and practice for Monday, our first day.
When we were through some f us phoned our parents because we had finished early and Rene has come errands to run. Anyway I got home and the house was clean and decorated for Lori Moniz's graduation party! Right now it's about over, but it's been fun and everyone I can think of from church is here! Well, I better get a going. Luv ya. Gandhi

I think it makes sense to explain that I was embracing a slur made at me by a girl who was teasing me about a pimple on my forehead.

Diaries Pt. 2

 Diaries from a 12 year old me.

January 7, 1988

"Today was an o.k. day.
My science fair project is not growing and I am getting upset.
That's about all for today,
cause today was sort of boring."

 
April 25,1988

"Today was nice, I realized I love 6th grade. All of my friends are so great. Anyways, today Satan tried to stop me from obeying my mother, but it didn't work. Oh, today I had really pretty silver earrings hoops on and Burgandy Hart goes, " look the gypsy"
and I said, "well at least I'm not a dog like you."
and she goes, "at least I'm not a mucas"
and I said, "well guess what, I'm not either".
man, I capped her good. 

Just so we're clear, I did not cap her good.

33 Year Old Diaries Pt. 1

 It's very strange to read through the words that you wrote 30 years ago. Trying to recognize that girl is hard, because so much light has been shed on those times and as an adult you have insight into the life around that girl, so you can never return to her perspective, because it's full in understanding. 

I'm about to throw all of these books away. Heart covered, teddy bear be-speckled and on with a "lock". But I also realize that in the ramblings of a girl desperate to have value, I should remember her. So, I'm going to put down some of the thoughts here. Maybe I can share it with my grandchildren, maybe I can remember something about her. 

I definitely talked/wrote to my diaries like they were about to become my best friends. In my first one I introduced myself in the cover. I am a dork. 

:Well, since we're going to be friends. My name is Leah (Lucas) Jozen, I'm 12 years old, in the 6th grade, and I love attention from boys:

 

January 1, 1988 Boy Loved: George High

"This  morning I got home from babysitting the Terry's kids, I got paid $10. Now altogether I have $23.42, my sister Danielle has $3.00, she wants us both the share my money. As usual when I come home after babysitting my room is a mess and I have to clean it. It's late and I'll be going to bed soon. My uncle came over and he's playing Nintendo! I went over to the Swanson's and watched some VCR tapes and played Rumykub. My sister, Danielle got to sleep over there. Jeana and I just finished making a snowman light brite. Happy New Year." 

 

January 2, 1988

"BAD DAY!"

 

January 3, 1988

"Today was o.k.this morning at about 11am my mom & dad went to Cindy & Danny's for a bible study. Danielle, Jeana and I stayed home and played while Kayla and Sheela slept. We hid from each other and played UPWORD, when my parents got home we pretended that we had been working. Later my mom and I went to the store and got a bunch of stuff, came home and went to bed. Today wasn't too good, or bad."